I prayed for him and for me to not feel so unloved and alone. No big church wedding, no beautiful decorations, just a cheap wedding dress and about 30 of our friends and family. Get more scandalous confessions by liking. I was married, but I was more alone than ever.
Women still have been assigned terrible labels and stereotypes if they play to this trope. A burning body found in Southern California may be that of 19-year-old Bryce Laspisa. At one point in time I really did feel alive. He roamed the halls at Sierra College, and even classmates who never met him are worried about him. . I told myself I was fine with that sacrifice at the time, but it always ate at me.
I cheated on him while he was deployed, while he was serving our country, blah blah blah. Even though I took care of everything in our lives it was always, always about him. How many people would be understanding if instead of being deployed he was a workaholic career woman? He was headed home to Orange County to visit his parents after he broke up with his girlfriend. And the end of the day the cause of feeling like your relationship is frigid and loveless is irrelevant when the result is the same — feeling undesired and alone. His cellphone and wallet were still inside the car, but no sign of Bryce. Maybe if we were older we could have prevented what happened.
It was that he took my identity from me. When he was gone, it was even worse. It seemed special and romantic at the time, almost like an American tradition even. He was medicine to me.
He was always the hero. I was young, he was young. I was in love with my husband until it cost me my whole self, and then I met a man who gave it back to me. To be completely invisible in your own life? I wish we would have been free to use our own natural timing when deciding when to get married and then had the time for me to plan a real wedding.
He made me into His Wife instead of my own person. We got engaged nine months after we met and I moved across the country with him to a different base. I worked on our relationship. People wanted to talk to me and not just to ask about my husband. . .
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